Black Boy

I can write a love story about every guy I’ve ever liked. 

Soft gentle full lips on mine.

A touch here

A hand there

A squeeze

A bite

A smile 

We stop and stare

I move away still staring

I’m cheesing

He’s laughing


“You’re so cute.”

A pull

Hands at my waist

Arms around his neck

Another kiss

More intense 

A deep inhale

A tighter squeeze 


He wants more

I want more

But we stop

And that is

The end



So….I recently got over a crush… I got over him because something he did. Whenever I listen to Sorry by Beyonce it helps me dislike him more, which is a good thing.

But then 

I started having feelings for him again.

Ugh!! He has a girlfriend. This is not good. I can’t like him. I don’t want to have feelings for him

Idk what to do

I don’t know what’s happening to me. Like I’m usually a really dry person who shows no emotion and says, “Oh” to anything I don’t know how to respond to. Then all of a sudden in January of 2016 I became this cheery happy person and I tried my best to respond with something interesting. Ugh I freaking hate that, I try too hard then things become awkward. Because of this sudden change, I messed up things with my crush.(he also messed up) He and I could’ve had chance. I don’t know how to fix things… I’m so sad and mad. 😥😡😥😡😡😡😡😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😡

The past two days I was m–

I’m just going to put this situation into God’s hands. He’ll know what to do. 

From now on I’m going to quit talking about this boy with my friends and quit writing about him because I’m annoying myself.

The Un-Pleasantry’s of Life

Guys suck

Crushes suck

Everything sucks

Especially guys

Relationships suck (Even though I’ve never been in one)

My crush sucks. When I’m giving him attention he doesn’t like me, when I’m not that’s when he shows me attention and likes me.

F*ck off bro, you’re confusing me.

I hope my crush gives me something for V-Day.

Today I figured out that my crush and I don’t vibe. I realized that today because we were talking and we had so many awkward pauses it was the worst. This never happens when we talk. I’m never initiating conversations with him again.

Life freaking sucks