You have to stop!

Hannah, stop! Wake up every morning, go to the mirror, and tell yourself that you are beautiful! Cause you are

Do face masks and workout because you like to take care of yourself. Don’t do it because you don’t want people to find you ugly.

Enjoy your chopped hair! If you don’t, when it gets longer you’re gonna look back at the short hair photos and think wow I looked good, I wished I enjoyed it! 

You’re okay, you’re fine. I love you. Be your weird self, honestly nobody cares. 

Also, it’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to be hurt, it’s okay be angry. It’s okay to be fearful.

Scream and shout and let it all out! You are young! You are free! Don’t let anything or anyone hold you back. You’ll be okay, you’ll be fine. I know it and that’s coming from you.

God has a plan for you. He’s going to send you someone. 

Remember to love yourself. 

You’re gonna be okay.


I need some confidenceĀ 

Yo Hannah!!


You’re a boss ass queen!!

I am?!

Hell to the yeah!! 

Well, what makes me a queen? Tell me, please. 

How am I a queen?

Tell me!! Please! I am begging you!!

…you…um… you just are?…I guess…


I’m gone

How does one find self confidence? I’ve been struggling with this for years!! You know what? I’m just gonna 

I’m gonna 

I’m gonna 

I am going to 

to do 

nothing. I’m not going to try to be confident. I will be some day, I know it. Right now I’m just growing and I will continue to.

In the 8th grade

I wanted to be taller
I wanted to be slimmer
I wanted to have smaller boobs

But mainly out of all those I really wanted to be taller.

I did research. What’s the average height for women? 5’6

My favorite actress were also that height. I asked my siblings if it was too late for me to grow. They said no.

I would pray to God everyday to be 5’6. I would go on fasts, that I would eventually break (lol).

On New Year’s Eve, my church would have a party. My sister told us to write down prayers to God instead of resolutions. You’d keep the paper till the end of the year and see if any of them were answered.

My first prayer to God was to be 5’6 before high school started. I wrote some other things on the paper, but I don’t remember.

So the whole year of 2013, I stopped worrying about my height because I knew that I was going to be 5’6. I prayed about it occasionally, but not as much as I did a year ago.

My favorite show is glee and one of my favorite characters is Rachel Berry played by Lea Michele. Now, Lea Michele is 5’2 and she was rocking her shortness, but I didn’t think too much of that because I wanted to be tall.

Through out the year I thought I was growing.

I wasn’t.

When August came and I went to the doctor for a check up when they measured me they said I was 5’0. Five feet tall!! At that point in the year I didn’t care as much about my height, but I was disappointed.

I asked God why didn’t I grow. Then I thought about how I probably hindered myself when I didn’t finish my fast, or I wasn’t praying enough.

Through out my high school career I only grew one inch.

I realized later that God wanted me to be okay with myself. That I’m beautiful whether I’m tall or small. I’m glad He taught me that.


Mmm… I love it.

Gosh, it’s honestly one of the best feelings ever.

When someone likes your tweet or comments on your Instagram picture or calls you beautiful or smart.

I seek this everyday. Subconsciously.

Will I ever stop searching for it? Will I ever just be okay?

Who knows? We’ll find out later in Hannah’s Life

Not AgainĀ 

I hate myself. No, I really do.

I just wish I had confidence.

I wish I was smart and intellectual.

I wish I was a better writer.

I wish I had good habits.

I wish and I want so much.

I’m mad at myself. Hannah, if it’s not funny don’t laugh. I have to remind myself of that. I don’t want to be fake. I want to be honest with myself and everyone around me, I just don’t want to be rude. Why am I feeling this way?? Oh, I know why, it’s because of some boy.